Sunday, September 27, 2015

Assurances





The river water is all grimy here.

Each time I life my foot my footprints

Disappear in the haze of the mud

As though I was never there at all,

Not even as a disturbance.

I don’t drink the water full of silty mush.

My tongue, a dusty parched prairie of tall thin grass,

Says to me, “Surely, the water past the tree,

Where the large roots hold the soil together,

Will be cool and clear, a crystalline blue

To drown our thirst to death.”

 

The river water is all weedy

Below the bending willow branches

Small crisp leaves fall from limp vines

Landing gently, soaking up the near stagnant current.

Arms of snake grass reach high above the water                      

Like drowning green soldiers calling for relief.

Cobwebs stretch from limb to limb while

Bugs breed persistently on the sticky surface.

My tongue, an arid plain of hot dry sage,

Says to me “We can’t drink this infectious sludge.

Beyond the rocks there will be a richer water,

Filtered, fresh and crystalline

To drown our thirst to death.”

 

The river water is all gritty

Where the current begins to breathe coarsely.

The stream falls and trickles, passing between the rocks.

It stirs and stirs a most methodic brew.

A pulsing pain passes up my leg as the

Pressed pebbles scrape at the tender walls

Of skin between my toes.

My tongue, a vacant desert filled with gaping cracks, says to me

“No sir, it will not do, this gritty stew is not for us.

Around the bend I’m sure will be water good for you and me.

Transparent through and through. Crystalline this time for sure.

To drown our thirst to death.”

 

Like a narrow neck the river passes

Roaring over moss glossed boulders

Unstable steps graze the slick coated convex knolls

While merciless and ferocious waves plow me down

Bloodied knees mark each fall and floating

Red clouds trail behind like notes to a song singing,

“See the ocean down the hill. There

With crystalline blue your mouth you’ll fill.

To drown your thirst to death.”

 

Oh the lies I’ve told myself!

The only Crystalline thing here

Are the grains of salt

Clinging incessantly to the unending shore

Marking where the water once was, but now is not

The saline residue sizzles on my bare sole’s open wounds

And my dying tongue whispers to me,

“You should’ve checked for bubbling springs,

Crystalline trickles all along the way,

Flowing from green hills above

And maybe, just maybe, we wouldn’t have died of thirst.”

Saturday, May 9, 2015

The Day the Sunflowers Stopped Facing the Sun


One dark morning, young Finch wrestled and pecked through the freshly fallen wall of snow that covered old wrinkly Evergreen. Emerging from the newly formed hole he hopped from branch to branch. “Good morning, Mr. Evergreen, sir,” tweeted the spry fowl.
            “Humph,” grumbled the crotchety fir. “I don’t believe in good mornings anymore,” he murmured to himself as he stretched his long, slender limbs. Evergreen then shook his thick coat of needles causing tiny particles of ice to explode into the air.
            Finch swooped from the branches and cut through the frigid cloud of crystals taking in sharp breaths as he gracefully spiraled down. The cold air stabbed and pricked at his delicate lungs. 
He alighted on Willow for a moment to catch his breath and greet the frost-coated thicket. “Good mor-”
Just then a fierce gust came knocking Finch from Willow’s brittle branch. The small bird tumbled and flipped through the air before disappearing into a mound of snow and a puff of powder. The North Wind cackled and hooted with chill delight as he passed by frolicking about the dale. A series of shrill gasps came from the trees as he slithered by tickling their trunks as he went. At least someone is having a good morning, thought Finch.
            “Ughh!” piped Willow. “Tha-tha-that nasty fellow, kicking up snow every which way he goes!”
            “Please Mr. Willow calm down. You can’t get better when you’re upset,” chirped Finch.
            “Ya-you know, I-I-I heard him and Frost talking the other day. Tha-they s-say they never plan on leaving. Heee, hooo,” wheezed Willow. “Heee, hooo. Wa-why won’t Frost just la-leave me alone or k-kill me quickly?”
            Finch looked down and after a short moment peeped back. “Please, sir, try not to think that way. If I see Bear I will tell him keep an eye out for Frost tonight.” With that he leapt into flight and while flying away he sent one more musical strain in Willow’s direction. “Do try and have a good day Mr. Willow. You mustn’t let that old villain get the best of you.”
Thwok-flap-flap. Up he pushed, high above the crowns of the now stretching conifers. “Sleep well,” he sang to Moon who was just now settling down below the horizon. Thwok-flap-flap. Up he pushed, high above the star-lit hills. A waterfall of diamonds crashed into existence where the stars on the horizon and the shimmering white hill tops met. 
On the eastern clearing a dark, jagged silhouette scarred the perfectly white landscape and Finch spied the crumbling walls of an old hamlet. No light flickered in the windows. No black, billowing columns escaped the tilted chimneys.
            Now gently gliding in the breeze Finch had come to the tallest summit that stood watching over the woodland. He landed in two fidgety hops and rolled to a stop on a plump boulder.
            “Ha ha, he he,” laughed Frost who had made his home upon the stony surface during the night. “Get off! Get Off!” he cried to Finch. “Your mangy feathers are tickling me.”
            “I come here every morning, sir,” said Finch, clapping his beak haughtily. “So why don’t you just find yourself a new home, and preferably not on one of my friends”
            “Bahh,” snooted Frost as he skulked further down the crags. “It won’t be long before your critters are gone. Bahh!”
            With a bent brow and one eye fidgeting, Finch watched to make sure Frost was well on his way. When he was sure he would no longer be bothered, he twisted his head toward the eastern horizon. His eyes remained open, stretched to capacity and his heart fluttered rapidly for many minutes as he watched. Lub dub, lub dub. Then as more minutes passed his pulse slowed. Luub duub, luub, duub. His eye lids relaxed and his eyes gradually reduced to their normal pea size. The stars burned more intensely than before and the dark sky dove into even deeper pools of blackness as the sleeping Moon disappeared completely behind the mountains. It dawned on Finch that, once again, day would not arrive.
            Finch had never seen the Sun. When he was younger he would sit up late at night and listen to Moon tell stories of the dancing tulips in the spring when the world was moist and all life was swollen with shades of green. Then there were the proud roses that stood erect and dignified flaunting their petals as summer chased away the rain and children’s laughter echoed through the hollow as they splashed in the creek. Though, nothing was more enchanting than the tales of the Sunflowers. Oh, the Sunflowers, whose deep brown faces and blazing manes of gold would trace an undeviating course across the purple autumn sky. Every morning the people would wake and watch the flowers bend with anticipation, and they would know that Sun was on his way again. Finch imagined how wonderful it must have been.
            He took one last look at the eastern horizon before letting himself fall and catch the breeze lazily with his arched wings. Then he turned his gaze to the field that sat just outside the abandoned hamlet like a great white quilt. At the edge of the quilt stood a tall Elm, a wide watchtower looking over the ancient evergreen forest. Zig-zagging slowly down from the glazed slopes he glided toward the field, swish up, float down, swish up, float down.
Soon, with one final swish and a plop, he landed at the base of the mighty trunk. Sticking his round beak into the powder he burrowed down to reach the frozen soil. He crinkled his wings and rustled his tail as he wormed about looking for Elm seeds. Each day it seemed to take him longer than before.
After he had collected a few, he wriggled his way to the surface and rocketed skyward. “G’ mo’ring, E’m,” he jabbered with a beak full of seeds as he approached Elm’s thick branches.
“A good morning to you my dear boy,” replied Elm in a raspy voice. “I’m afraid there isn’t much to offer this morning.”
“Oh Elm, don’t worry,” chirped Finch after emptying the seeds onto a wide limb.
“It’s been many years since I’ve actually produced seed and the Sparrows are down there every morning as well.”
“Please, don’t worry Mr. Elm. Is Grandpa Finch awake yet?”
“You know, I’m not sure. You’ll have to go check.”
Finch leapt and flapped once, landing on the bough above. He crept slowly into a great opening in the thick trunk where Owl once lived before he went away. There on top of a pile of dried Elm leaves lay a mass of feathers. Grandfather’s rust-red wings were ruffled, and the fuzz on his small head only grew in patches. Finch watched as he breathed heavily and trembled under the strain. “Grandfather,” he squeaked softly.
Grandfather’s eyes peeled open slowly. “Aye, my lad. How nice of you to come visit.”
“Grandfather, I’m sorry but Sun did not come.”
In an almost indistinguishable whisper came the reply.  “Aye, but he will.”
“Grandfather, you must eat,” urged Finch, with more energy in his voice. He placed the Elm seeds gently before the old bird who made no attempt to place the seed in his brittle beak. It had been this way for many days now. Finch would bring what seeds he could find and Grandfather would insist that Finch use what are left of the seeds to keep himself in good health. Finch gave two abrasive nudges pushing the seeds towards Grandfather, his beak rasping at the bark as it moved.
“I won’t make it,” hummed Grandfather quietly. “But you will.”
“But Grandfa-”
“No buts. I’ve seen the Sun. It’s your turn. You eat them lad.” Grandfather tried to wink, but his one eye stayed shut and would not peel open again.
“Please! Grandfather,” whimpered Finch.
Acting as though he had not heard Finch’s insistent plea, Grandfather began to tell of the old days in a low whisper. He recounted the times when the wide field was a sea of bobbing crowns. Each gold wreath of the sunflowers gave unceasing praise to the blazing orb above. Farmer would be busy in the autumn selling his crops in the village square. People bustled around his wooden carts filled with nature’s treasures. There were plump pumpkins, blushing yams, and freckled potatoes all from the patches on the side of his cottage. From the thriving orchard he collected bushels of Granny Smiths and Red Deliciouses sparkling in the calm light like emeralds and rubies. In his labor, Farmer would call to Grandpa Finch.
“Oh Mr. Finch, how nice it is to see you,” he would say. “Please won’t you go to my sunflowers and remind them to always face the sun. The children will be out of school soon and will want to go and play among my flowers.”
Day in and day out Farmer would greet Mr. Finch and send him to the fields to remind the sunflowers to face the sun so that the children would be greeted by their bright faces and vibrant petals.
One day the sunflowers watched Farmer digging in the corner of the field closest to the school yard. When Farmer stepped aside shaking dirt from his hands they saw a new sunflower, taller, bigger and brighter than all the others.
“Hello!” cried the stranger to all the other Sunflowers.
“Why, hello,” they all responded, bobbing their brown heads in wonder. “Certainly you are the biggest and most beautiful of all the sunflowers that we have ever seen. Where do you come from?” they asked.
However, before he could respond, the school bell chimed and a flood of children spilled out of the building. “Oooo!” they squealed. “Farmer has brought a new flower!”
“It is so tall,” said one boy.
“It is beautiful,” said a cluster of children.
“I love it more than all the other sunflowers,” a small pretty girl said in a melodious voice.
The look of wonder on the other sunflower’s faces turned to contempt. The thought that the children no longer loved them burned within each of their leafy limbs.
“How could Farmer bring this sunflower to our field?” they murmured amongst themselves. “We have lived here for many years. What gives this flower the right to take the children away from us?”
Just then Mr. Finch darted above the bell tower and came swooping down to the fields. He gracefully glided above all the waving yellow flames. Just like all the previous days, he chirped and tweeted his song, reminding the sunflowers to always face the sun.
“Humph,” they all snorted. “We will not face the sun until Farmer removes that unwelcome guest from our field.”
With that, one by one, each sunflower turned to face the ground. Those closest to the new sunflower hesitated a moment for they saw his true beauty. They looked to the sunflower, then back at their friends, and finally they too bowed their heads.
Many days passed but no matter how many tweets or chirps Mr. Finch dropped from above, the sunflowers would not look toward the sun.
“Please,” cried the lonely sunflower in the corner of the field. “I mean you no harm. Oh, please, follow the sun.” Only snorts came his way. Each day he watched as more and more of his fellow sunflowers withered away to the dusty soil. Soon he was left alone, a single stalk in a bare corner. Finally, when the wicked crows had come from above and violently plucked nearly every seed from his beautiful face, he too fell, and the children no longer visited the fields.
“How can I look upon such a sight?” groaned Sun. “I cannot bear it any longer. I must go away until I know that there will come again at least one sunflower who will look heavenward.” So, he left the hamlet and began a long nap below the western horizon. Soon the North Wind’s cackles littered the once fresh air, and a trail of cold corpses followed Frost everywhere he went. The people packed their things and moved on. When Farmer, who was the last to go, turned from his field for the last time, all that was left were the wisps of snow scuttling through the air and a barren Elm. 
Mr. Finch breathed in the stabbing air as he descended to the lonely corner where the last sunflower once stood. He burrowed into the snow and did not emerge until he had found the last seed that lay on the solid soil. With a thwok-flap-flap Mr. Finch pushed high into the air and dove down toward Elm cutting through wisps of icy particles. Below Elm’s thick root Mr. Finch buried the seed, insisting that Elm keep it safe and warm.
“And there it’s been ever since, lad,” whispered Grandpa Finch faintly as he strained to take in another icy breath. “Now,” sighed Grandfather almost inaudibly. “It’s, yo-your t-turn.”
Grandfather’s eyes were latched shut again and Finch could barely see his breast rise and fall. “Ha ha, he he,” hooted Frost who silently listened from outside the hole. “Looks like Willow’s not the only critter I’m claiming tonight– ha ha, he he – and it won’t be long before I have you too.”
            Finch raised his left foot to avoid Frost as he came crawling forward. Finch’s eyes flared wide. He burst from the dark shelter like a comet then dove spiraling down in a flame of fury as he disappeared into a blanket of snow. He shot straight down to Elm’s protruding root. He pecked and clawed at the soil below, twitching and fluttering in a fit of rage, but Frost had already paid a visit. Above the soil where the last sunflower seed lay buried was a thick residue of ice. Just as Finch thought he could not expel another breath he freed the seed from a crack in the ice.
            With a chipped beak and bleeding claws, he lurched. Thwok-flap-flap. Finch launched himself up, up from the powdered ground. He soared to the corner nearest the dilapidated school house.  As soon as Finch touched softly on the ground he felt a blistering pain in his left foot. “Baah! Ha ha, he he,” shrieked Frost. “You just stay put while I take care of all your wretched friends. Ha ha, he he. Good luck planting a seed in that soil.”
 Finch’s foot was sheathed in ice, chaining him to that spot. He whimpered and squawked. He wriggled and kicked. His wings scraped and pulled against the frost-bitten earth as he tried to escape. He twisted and twisted until he heard a chilling snap come from his leg. He fell to his side unable to support himself. His foot remained locked in place while his leg lay bent at a severe angle, a broken twig in the snow. He heard Frost’s ha ha, he he in the distance slinking away from him.
            After exhausting all his energy trying to escape, there on the solid ground, Finch faintly prodded and poked at the ice with his worn beak trying to cut through and place the seed in the soil below. Not even a scratch appeared on the surface. He raised his head and looked over his body at his tortured leg.
Below the bend he saw a tiny dark bead forming at the mouth of a small wound.  The warm drop fell to the cold surface bursting on impact. Finch watched the ice soften slightly under the vibrant blood. Then, with renewed energy, he curled his body, pulling his beak toward the bruised and tender flesh. He began pulling and plucking at the thin skin around the severed bone. Soon, instead of oozing droplets, Finch managed to induce a steamy, red trickle, trailing from his leg. It gathered slowly at the torn flesh and then fell, lightly sprinkling the white ice. When a hot puddle of crimson had formed below his body Finch dropped the seed from his clutched beak. With his snout he burrowed the seed through the pink sludge.
In the instant the seed connected with the soft, living soil Finch noticed a brilliant azure in the sky, a color he had never seen. Now gazing skyward, he watched the stars melt away. A smooth touch of amber kissed the eastern horizon. Then as his last breath escaped his breast he caught hold of a blazing pillar of wild fire, possessing a wave of heat that turned the snow to melted gold.
            That warm afternoon, after Bear discovered Finch’s cold body in the rotten snow and the news spread through the woods, Willow wept and Elm bowed his head.
            It was not long before the tulips danced again and the roses flaunted their summer petals once more. Then, in a certain corner of the field, when autumn had arrived, Sun smiled down on a tender green sprout that sprang from the fertile soil and stretched heavenward from between the hollow ribs of a departed songbird.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Battle Cry of Rock and Roll

Since the early days of Rock n' Roll popular music in America has grown increasingly diverse. This smorgasbord of musical styles has led the charge in many branching genres of music. Evidence of this wide spread circulation is as prevalent as ever. Tools such as the internet, iTunes, and YouTube are linking changing music and its target audiences. Not only are teenagers keeping tabs on the new styles of music, but the musicians themselves are tuning in to the past, where the foundation of modern music can be explored.
            Unfortunately, with every new wave of musical creativity there are always critics who deem the modern music movement as a destructive influence on today's teens. It seems that such critics are overlooking the vital role that music plays in our culture. Seen especially in today's expanding music world are positive influences in our communities, education, and the lives of the musicians themselves.
            Heath Gilbert of Music Village in Riverdale has a broad understanding of the value of music in our culture. Since age seven he has been playing the guitar, and at age fourteen he began sharing his love of music as a guitar teacher. Now he uses his education in electrical engineering to equip high school bands with quality sound equipment, as will be seen at the upcoming Battle of the Bands taking place at Ogden Historic Union Station, April 15th.
The music that will be heard is “diverse”, and “rich”, he said. According to Gilbert when they began working with Battle of the Bands a few years ago, nearly every band he heard sounded the same. Today there are many styles and genres being performed. With the wide spread availability of music bands are beginning to reach out to all communities of people, as they are integrating older styles such as classic R&B, folk, country, and classic rock with their sounds. Much of early Rock history is in fact the history of racial integration. It was the teen generation that brought Blacks and Whites together through a commonality among popular music. White teens, in contrast to their parents’ wishes, were enthralled with the artistic creativity of the records produced by Black R&B artists. It was said by the emerging Rock artist Little Richard “The White kids didn’t want their mamma to know I was in the house. They’d put Pat [Boone] on the bed and me in the drawer.” Music once again has proven to be a “universal language” in which not only the lyrics but the rhythm and sound speaks to all communities.
Music is a medium to which everyone can relate, but it is also an educational tool that bridges the gap between a creative and logical mind. There is a different kind of thought process that is involved with the production of music. “It is the one of the only activities in which you’re using the right and the left brain at the same time,” said Gilbert. His wife Erin Gilbert described to me the difference between her approaches to math as opposed to her husband’s during their shared high school math class. Rather than memorized formulas that lose meaning without repetition, they were real life applications that could be understood by a mind well practiced in music. There is, perhaps, no better teacher than the music teacher who will impart the understanding of music theory and its application.
Many of the bands performing at Battle of the Bands have dreams of making their mark in the music industry, when in reality a majority of the bands members will end up on different paths. When asked if he has seen any bands make it to stardom, Gilbert said that most of the bands acquire much prominence locally, but usually if anyone moves outside of the local scene it is individual band members. However they’re dedication is not to go without a reward. Gilbert understands that the greater reward is “what they learn in trying, what they become in regards to character.” Music provides important life lessons of perseverance and determination. Students of the art learn to set aside frustration and perfect their work. The love for the music provides the driving beat which will keep musicians on the path to success in music as well as other fields. Diligence and determination acquired by practicing musicians will be manifest throughout their lives.
At the same time as developing strong character traits, musical activities will protect individuals from degrading influences. Learning guitar “kept me out of trouble”, said Gilbert. Music plays on emotion and shows kids they can get their high from music rather than other damaging sources. It gives an opportunity for teenagers who are not interested in sports, or student office to have an outlet, and to show their true potential.
One of the things Gilbert looks forward to most is “seeing kids get an opportunity to perform.” Just like their parents they are changing the culture in which we live. To Gilbert it is exciting to see the “evolution”, of music. Indeed, the change in music styles has changed and reflects the changes in American culture. Whether one is willing to accept it or not the flux in music is conducive to a well-developed generation and culture. So, I will proudly echo Chuck Berry and sing, “Long live Rock and Roll.”

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Passing on the Rock

“He was a rock.” My father said.

A rock, firm, unshakable, that's how my father described Grandpa Mathis. I know my father has great admiration for his dad. Unfortunately the opportunity to meet my grandfather has never come my way. He passed away ten years before I was born into this world.

It is through my father that I come to understand who my grandpa was. Not only does the name LeGrand Macfarlane Mathis live on through my father LeGrand Macfarlane Mathis Jr. but also the character. You see, my father stands, like Christ, as a rock.


There is no figure in my life more admired and respected than my father. He is a man I hope I will never let down. What a legacy to uphold. It seems a daunting task to try and become the man and loving father that my dad is. I can't think of a greater honor than to have it be said of me that the rock was passed on from father to son.

Monday, February 14, 2011

Just Another Day at "Work"

I say it all the time but I don't mean it. After all, it is one of those phrases that is used colloquially. Now that my justification is clarified, I admit that I lie to people everyday when I tell them, “I have to go to work.” It is not my fault that work doesn't feel like work. Think about it, important things are still getting done and minds are still being enlightened. It's not hard or laborious, but that doesn't mean I'm lazy.

Most of the time I feel like I'm an active contributor to the staff, but I can't help it if working with kids in an after-school program sometimes puts one in a child-like disposition. I hope that my co-workers are of the same mind, cause let's be honest, a work environment needs to be kept interesting. Everyone knows being a good role model, helping with homework, and providing fulfilling activities are all second in priority to building a sweet tower of pudding cups.



Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Duty to God: Legend of the Sioux Brave

Imagine with me many years past, particularly the years of the great Sioux Nation.


As young Sioux brave came of age, which was only a few years older than many of you, it was custom for a ceremony to take place to honor the passage from boy to manhood. However, before the celebration was to take place the young boys were to give evidence of a stout heart.


It was on dark nights that an aspiring warrior would be guided by his patient father into the living forest. When in isolation the boy’s eyes were covered with cloth. He was left only with the sounds of the night ringing in his ears: the snapping of branches under a bear’s soft paw, the rubbing of antler on a tree, or the wind whispering willows. There he stood alone proving his manhood by removing the veil only after the morning sun was felt on his face.

When at last the warmth rest on his cheeks, the relieved man removes the cover only to discover a loving father who all night was at his side.


Sunday, November 7, 2010

Gabriel's Victory

This is an experience I recently had. It reminded me of a short story one of my friends wrote. So yes, Shaun,  I borrowed concepts from your vignette.

The air bites my ear as the cold steel of the enemy comes within inches of a fatal blow. I crouch and place my shield above my head. The enemy’s blade crashes down on my wooden shield as my sword sweeps below the splintered wood seeking to take out his legs. The blade cuts nothing but the light air. Unsuccessful, I release my knees springing forward, my shield still in position; I circle around to his backside, lunging for his arm, our blades meet with an ear-piercing clash. I recoil my arm and lash out again this time targeting his leg. With a thump, my blade meets, now, his shield and sinks deep into the wood. He raises my sword high above my head and I watch the bright steel swoop down from high in the air like a bird of prey approaching a kill. I give a cry of agony when his weapon nearly severs my leg below the knee. My balance, offset I tumble to the ground. I roll onto my back. Quickly following comes, a Crack! Splinters pelt my face and I look up at the enemy from behind the remaining half of my shield. I roll again avoiding another blow. Looking up, I see in the settling dust a glimmer of light. My sword now lies several feet from me. Clumsily, I pull my self towards it. At last grasping it I turn a last time and catch my foes mighty blow inches above my face. With the ring of the clash still resonating in my ears I give a kick with my still whole leg into the abdomen of my opponent. He falls back. Thinking he is unaware I raise my blade to smite his exposed neck. While my weapon moves down in attack an unexpected swing of his sword discontinues my blow. The steel makes no clank, and for a moment I am confused. I then hear a crash, and a plop behind me and I realize my sword is gone and my hand taken from me. The enemy stands. I lay unarmed in his shadow. My eyes remain open as I feel the cold steel slide across my tender neck. The last thing I see is the sky above me. I am dead.


“Hey! Get up! You’re not really dead Uncle Wesley.”

I turn my head towards the insistent five-year-old standing above me in his Boston Red Sox t-shirt.

“It’s not a real sword.” He says. “See, it’s bendy.” And with that he demonstrates the flexibility of his cardboard sword wrapped in duct tape.

“Oh, you’re right.” I reply. “I guess we should start over then.”

“Yeah! He he he.”